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Sawdust and Smoke



Sawdust and Smoke

You built your home on a hill sloping
to the sea, anchored by blackberry brambles holding fruit
The size of your weathered thumb.

You opened the door to your brother’s family
Though you could hear the strain and pulse
Of the poison spreading in his bones.

***

I smell the forest in your steel-toed
boots, feel the sawdust in your flannel shirt and the folds
of wool socks—I can almost fit two
Of my feet into one sock.

***

Blue smoke swirls around your head
quiet in your favourite chair.
Introvert, before I knew what silence held
Before I knew I shared that corner with you.

You waited until I found my words, answered
As if I were tall. You let me wear your hard
-hat, showed me the engines

That you and John always knew how to fix.

***

After, you offered mother and I
Your hands, all your hours.
The house was so quiet
You heard the whispers.

***

Over tea, you told me my father
Conned you into doing the morning chores.
He was tired of being teased
For smelling like cows on the school bus.

I breathed past longing
Tried to convey gratitude with shaking hands.

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Nothing has happened, I just neeed this to be out somewhere.


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( 9 comments — Leave a comment )
irisbleufic
Jan. 2nd, 2012 11:40 pm (UTC)
This brings back the woodsmoke smell of my family's ancestral hunting camp so strongly. Absolutely beautiful <3
ciaranbochna
Jan. 3rd, 2012 12:07 am (UTC)
Oh thank you:) My aunt and uncles farm is a a beautiful, time-locked place to me. He is very ill right now, so I was trying convey how wonderful he is thought it.
suchaprince
Jan. 3rd, 2012 08:13 am (UTC)
This was so very lovely.
ciaranbochna
Jan. 8th, 2012 08:36 am (UTC)
Thank you:)
samalander_dawn
Jan. 3rd, 2012 08:13 pm (UTC)
wow
just....ya
ciaranbochna
Jan. 8th, 2012 08:36 am (UTC)
:)
caffienekitty
Jan. 8th, 2012 04:02 am (UTC)
Sorry I missed this when it went up. It's gorgeous.
ciaranbochna
Jan. 8th, 2012 08:39 am (UTC)
Don't even think about it, just get better:)

And thank you:)
ciaranbochna
Jan. 15th, 2012 06:43 am (UTC)
Sawdust and Smoke
I have tears in my eyes reading this. It reminds me of my dad and my uncle and, well, stuff.

It's beautiful like all your work.
Thank you.
J at LW's
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